So you're sad
because you
don't have someone 2love
That's not
what I meant,
I responded.
Everyone thinks
happiness and sadness
are things that either are or aren't.
You're either happy,
or you're sad.
But,
I don't think
it works that way
I think
most things in life
don't work the way
most people assume
they work.
And I'm not saying that
because I think
everyone is wrong about the way
things work.
(even though
everyone is
wrong
about the way
things work)
You can be more than one thing at a time.
That's what
we tend 2forget.
Have you ever been
truly, completely happy?
Without any worries?
And not like,
the worries you have
temporarily faded into the background.
I mean like,
there's actually nothing for you to worry about.
Because even when you're
happy,
there are still things
that can make you sad.
And you can be sad,
but there are some things that
still
make you happy.
I'm happy right now
like,
4real.
I know when people say
4real
it usually means it's not as 4real
as the person is saying.
But I'm
4real 💯
So, are you looking for love?If it finds me.But, do you want a girlfriend?If I find the right person.So you're not looking for a girlfriend?If the right person finds me.
Well,
you either
want someone to be with
or
you don't want someone to be with.I want to be with the right person.So how do you know
who's the right person?
I mean,
you just know.But are you committed to finding them?
I'm committed to being myself.
And I'm not like anybody else.
I have a lot to give.
And I'm lucky enough,
that I can give a lot a lot of the time.
Most people don't
give as much
all the time
as I do.
So,
sometimes
people can get
confused as to what
they're feeling and what's being given
(to them)
(from me)
And it makes me sad
to make someone feel betrayed
even though I'm not betraying them.
I know it's scary.
It's one of the scariest things you could
ever feel.
Jumping,
hoping there's
going to be
something
someone
there to catch you.
And if you've
been caught before.
You know how
amazing it feels.
And if you've
jumped
without being caught,
you know how...
that feels too 🫤
I've jumped,
and I've caught,
and I've been (not) caught
That's just the way life is...
Life is scary AF
You don't want to be jumping all the time
Because then it feels like the
catch isn't that special.
But you also don't want to be afraid of jumping, because if you never jump you're never going to get caught. And we already established being caught is one of the best things you could ever experience 🥰
So, which one is it?It's both of them at the same time.
It's none of them at a time.
It's one
It's the other
I think it has a lot to dow ith how much we see and everything we consume. We're getting pictures and videos and thoughts and think pieces and information thrown at us at all times from all different directions. A never ending barrage of ideas and expressions about how you're supposed to feel or how you're not supposed to feel.
About how angry you're supposed to be 😡
Then you go online and someone said something you agree with that got 100k likes, but the very next post was the complete opposite of that which you just agreed with,
and it also got 100k likes.
So,
which one is it?
It's both
But, I'm still confused
and I still
doubt myself
Even though I
don't believe in anybody
like I believe in me 🤠
And I believe in a lot of people,
but,
shit,
I'm not a lot of people.
I'm just,
Me.
And I know
you know
who I am too.
Even if you only know a little bit of me (digitally)
I give you a bit of myself
every week (2️⃣)
So, I want you to know that I'm happy
But I can also feel lonely
And it's okay to feel to be happy
but also sometimes feel lonely
And even when you
feel lonely,
you'll find something that makes you happy.
They say love is work,
and the love I've had was a lot of work
But I don't like to say "work" because
it didn't feel like work when it was
what I wanted to do ❤️🔥
When it
makes you feel
the way that thing makes you feel
(you know what I'm talking bout)
If you've
ever felt that before
you know exactly what I'm talking about.
And if you've lost before,
you also know what I'm talking about.
Sometimes,
it's scary to jump without someone to catch you.
But what if I told you,
there's never going to be anyone
there to catch you?
It's all a lie
You're the one that was
catching yourself the entire time
What if I told you,
we're actually always falling.
Sometimes we get used to it,
and sometimes we don't.
I know that sounds like,
something that can't be true.
How can you get used to something,
but then not used to it anymore?
"Papito, that's life,"
as my dad would say.
And you're wrong about a lot of things,
but you're also right about a lot of things.
I said wrong first,
so the last thing you'd read was
that I said you were right.
Even though you're always going to be wrong,
and you're always going to be right.
I think,
we're always falling
by ourselves.
And eventually you get used to it.
You just gotta find the people who are right there
falling with you.
And for a brief moment,
you forget you're falling.
That doesn't mean,
you're not
falling.
I hope you never land,
because that means it's over 🔚
So I want you to know,
I'm happy.
But I'm also sad
I'm lonely,
but I feel so much love.
I'm doubtful,
but I'm confident.
I'm all the things all at once and what you see might be what I am at the moment but don't let that fool you into thinking I'm not the other things at the same time.
Did this make sense?
I hope it didn't.
Because this (life) shit doesn't make sense.
Once you realize that,
once you accept that
then you'll be sad and happy all at once.
When you figure out what the means,
call me,
or text me,
or facetime me,
(just don't send me no fucking voice notes 😒)
Because I'll be falling right there with you 🫶🏽
